Big Fish

A little over three years ago, I moved to Minneapolis from Duluth, MN. It seemed like such a big step. I was excited and scared at the same time. I worried about how I was going to fit in living in a city with no family ties, but I needed a change. Before I left Duluth, one of my closest friends told me this-- "In Duluth you are a big fish, you get noticed and you get a lot of attention. Be prepared that when you get there it won't be like that. There are plenty of pretty girls in bigger cities, and you will be a little fish." She wasn't saying it to be mean, she meant it sincerely. I was used to attention and it was going to be weird being someplace where nobody noticed me. It actually really upset me to hear that, which is why I still remember it. Well, guess what? That didn't happen! Minneapolis has been great to me. I met some really fantastic people and I kept in touch with the great people from my past too. I still feel pretty and loved, but even more fulfilled. I realize that it wasn't because of what I looked like that I had gotten attention in the first place. It's because of who I am. I am secure with myself, and secure in my flaws and that goes a long way. I cannot thank all of the people who helped and encouraged me along my way enough! So, now I'm taking an even bigger step and I'm moving to New York City in a couple months. I won't have very much 'stuff' with me, but I will have my memories, courage and self-esteem. Because of those risks I've taken before, I'm sure I will continue to be a big fish.